However, having family in town gave me SO much time to myself...ironically. It was wonderful and gave me a glimpse of what is must feel like to have a live-in nanny.
I've always wondered what it would be like. I've never given my self "permission" before to allow any family members to almost completely take over my mommy responsibilities while I'm around; but for the first time, I let go of my freakishly controlling ways and relaxed.
Boy, did it feel good! No, GREAT! For a little while, at least.
Nana and Papa got up with the boys every morning and I lounged in bed for just a little while longer. They played with the boys while I got to get a jump start on my work for the day and clean up the house.
On the other hand, I started getting a little bit sad because both of my boys seemed to be enjoying themselves without me...their mommy.
Of course they were right by my side when they got a boo-boo or they were hungry or needed some extra cuddles. And I eagerly took advantage of the opportunity to shower them with extra attention.
The thing is, is that I wanted to give Nana and Papa some special time with the boys since we live so far away. So they got bonding time and they had a blast. And I, got to get a small taste of what having a nanny would be like.
These are the things I did enjoy:
- Getting to lounge in the morning
- Emptying the dishwasher and cleaning up in the kitchen after breakfast without a little person hanging on my leg
- Not having to do bath time (I don't particularly enjoy bath time)
- Finishing my work in the afternoon so I had my nights free to spend more time with my family
These are the things I didn't enjoy:
- Missing their smiling faces when they woke up and having my 1-year-old's little chubby arms reaching out for me
- Story time at night before they went to bed
- Taking walks and talking with my 3-year-old
- Playing with them in the playroom: building blocks, building train tracks, playing hide n seek etc
- Extra snuggle time
- Feeling needed
It was amazing to me how much I missed. There's a lot more to that list, but that's what came to mind first.
With all of the muddlesome things that go on in this mommy world we live in, I was beginning to miss those muddled moments that would most likely have happened if Nana and Papa weren't here.
You hear it all the time from parents of older children and family members, "You'll miss this stage when it's gone. They grow up so fast. Enjoy it!"
Sometimes I inwardly roll my eyes, and other times I smile and know that they are speaking the truth. But maybe I won't roll my eyes so much anymore? I missed my time with the boys.
Yes, I got a TON of stuff done and was more relaxed at the end of the night and could enjoy family time without thinking of all of the work I had to do once they were in bed, but I found myself just filling up my "free time" with unnecessary work like researching dream vacations or why Victoria Bekham is not wearing stiletto heels anymore.
Plus, I have had no fun stories to share on the blog. Believe me, I know I could have pulled out a few, but I had no inspiration because I wasn't surrounded in chaos for 12 days. Although I did make some mental notes of things to "discuss." Which of course escape me at the moment.
So moms, have you ever dreamed of what it would be like to have a live-in nanny? Or have you shunned the thought and said, "I would NEVER have such a selfish desire?" There are both sides out there. This, I know.
I had a couple of weeks to enjoy the possibility, but realized, I don't think it's so great after all.